I havent posted a well written post in...a long time. haha, so I thought I'd fill everybody in on how stuff's been and everything.
So far, things have been a little rough, but so far so good. Me and Johnny Boy are off and on again. [big surprise huh?] We decided to take a long awaited break from each other, and it has been working for the most part. Though I must say the more time we spend away from each other the more he tends to want to flirt with me when I am around him. I blame it on him being excessivly hyper lately. Though - a new character has been added to my life story, Ashley.
Ashley is like...the second comming of Keisha. If you know me pretty well, you'll know what I'm talking about. For thoughs of you who dont, Keisha was my best friend both my Freshmen and Sophomore years of High School, and were still pretty close. Ashley is allot like Keisha, minus all the smokeing and drinking and being boy crasy. haha. but...in all honesty, I think me and Ashley work pretty well together. On occassion, she my better half. We act allot alike. It was kinda scary the other day just listening to her talk to John in Japan Club. If I didnt know any better, I would of thought it was me.
As for all my random hobbies -I still have them. Im not acting as much anymore, if at all. Its hard to get parts now a days. I thought about going for 'the sound of music' this year, but was to petrified of having to work with mrs.jerome again and screwing up or somthing. Maybe next year. I still do all my artsy stuff, and I still write. and of course - im still keeping up with japan club. Id like to think im being a good president, but i just have this feeling that i could always do more. buuuut....ya never know. I probley would think fine of my japan club job if it werent for chris freaking wedding always telling me how bad of a job im doing, and how everything i do is comming out wrong. I really cant stand him. I've never in my life been good enough for him. Granted, I might have been brifely back when he wanted to go out with me - and i said no. Kinda cold, but, I really dont care. All he ever does is tick me off majority of the time. Hes tollerable, but i'd just be nice if i could be thanked for once for everything i do for people. Im kinda tierd of doing things for everybody and never hearing another word about it. but, its no big deal. Ill just keep on keeping on like i always have been.
welps, i think that will be all for today. feel free to comment if you like.
love,peace, & sushi treats -
Jessica
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Webpage Assignment
*** This is an assignment for my webpage class. He wanted us to create a blog and write somthing for a week. I thought it would be pointless to create a new blog, so im just gonna add on to my current one instead. Im gonna keep every days post in this one section, and then if i feel like writing one of my monthy essays I typically write on this thing, I will in another topic. ***
11/8/08
Today went okay, nothing amazing. The end of the day wasnt all too great. I accidently broke my glasses in half. I put them in my boyfriends pocket cuz i had somthing in my eye, and he forgot about them and sat down and they broke in half. My mom chewed me out, and it was bad. buuuut, o well. Its all good. All n' all, besides murdering my glasses, today went okay.
11/9/08
So far today has been alright. I have a murderous headache due to the fact that im wearing my old glasses from middle school. The prescription isnt right and its makeing my head hurt, but, o well. Its better then nothing. Im thinking about bring the peices in tommarow to school and hot glueing them together. I already tried tapeing them...yeah..didnt go all that well. Super glue doesnt work either cuz it doesnt have anything to hold on to, therefore doesnt work. [ Ive had like EVERYBODY tell me to super glue them. What part of "that doesnt work" dont they comprehend?!]
11/10/08
Todays okay. John isnt in the greatest of moods, but he says hes fine...soo....I guess Ill leave it at that. hmm...somthing to talk about...I preformed Messiah on Sunday twice and when I went in to Christmas Pop's rehersal's today everybody gave our group great reveiws. It was pretty cool. We sang it in this big church and then we when to the Henderson Fine Arts Center and sang it again for a smaller crowd. I find it funny that the crowd at the Fine Arts Center was smaller then the church. The church was packed. We had five hundred pamplets, and then ran out! Pretty Sweet. Oh, and I hot glued my glasses and they are okay now. you have to be really careful with them though. I think im gonn put tape over top of the glue as well, just as a precausion. welps...I guess thats it for today. It's kind uneventful around here.
11/11/08
Today was AWESOME! Not only did I finnish that EVIL Algebra II project, but I went to the Youth Service Center at school, and the teacher there said she could get me new glasses at no cost! Due to the fact that we are going bankrupt and the insurance wont pay for it till Nov. of next year, she said it wouldnt be any problem getting me new ones. Im on cloud nine....this is nice.... ^_^
11/12/08
So far, today has sucked. My relationship is going to the dogs, and I cant stand it. Its driving me insane, to the point that I cant handel it anymore. I have a strong feeling that the next couple days will be a living hell....
11/8/08
Today went okay, nothing amazing. The end of the day wasnt all too great. I accidently broke my glasses in half. I put them in my boyfriends pocket cuz i had somthing in my eye, and he forgot about them and sat down and they broke in half. My mom chewed me out, and it was bad. buuuut, o well. Its all good. All n' all, besides murdering my glasses, today went okay.
11/9/08
So far today has been alright. I have a murderous headache due to the fact that im wearing my old glasses from middle school. The prescription isnt right and its makeing my head hurt, but, o well. Its better then nothing. Im thinking about bring the peices in tommarow to school and hot glueing them together. I already tried tapeing them...yeah..didnt go all that well. Super glue doesnt work either cuz it doesnt have anything to hold on to, therefore doesnt work. [ Ive had like EVERYBODY tell me to super glue them. What part of "that doesnt work" dont they comprehend?!]
11/10/08
Todays okay. John isnt in the greatest of moods, but he says hes fine...soo....I guess Ill leave it at that. hmm...somthing to talk about...I preformed Messiah on Sunday twice and when I went in to Christmas Pop's rehersal's today everybody gave our group great reveiws. It was pretty cool. We sang it in this big church and then we when to the Henderson Fine Arts Center and sang it again for a smaller crowd. I find it funny that the crowd at the Fine Arts Center was smaller then the church. The church was packed. We had five hundred pamplets, and then ran out! Pretty Sweet. Oh, and I hot glued my glasses and they are okay now. you have to be really careful with them though. I think im gonn put tape over top of the glue as well, just as a precausion. welps...I guess thats it for today. It's kind uneventful around here.
11/11/08
Today was AWESOME! Not only did I finnish that EVIL Algebra II project, but I went to the Youth Service Center at school, and the teacher there said she could get me new glasses at no cost! Due to the fact that we are going bankrupt and the insurance wont pay for it till Nov. of next year, she said it wouldnt be any problem getting me new ones. Im on cloud nine....this is nice.... ^_^
11/12/08
So far, today has sucked. My relationship is going to the dogs, and I cant stand it. Its driving me insane, to the point that I cant handel it anymore. I have a strong feeling that the next couple days will be a living hell....
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Missing Innocence
Have you ever wondered what it would be like to go back to your childhood and relive it again, just so you could make it better? To make new memories, or even to relive the ones gone past. It seems like now a days, nobody want their innocence back. It’s all about growing up, and getting married, and having kids, and getting jobs. Nobody takes chances to imagine anymore. It’s all about money and keeping food on the table. I’m not saying that keeping ends meet is a bad thing, no. My point is, why cant we all keep some of our innocence with us? Why must we all grow up so fast?
One of my absolute favorite movies is Finding Neverland. It shows exactly what I’m talking about. About how life can have its ups and downs, but there’s really no point in living if you don’t take the time to have fun. Sometimes even I like to go to Neverland. No, I’m not mental, I’m serious. I like to just sit down someplace quiet, and just imagine what I could be doing. Or, simply think of a place that nobody else can get to, and dwell on the lovely thoughts that captivate it in my mind. A place where there is no drama, no pain, nor any kind of sad or depressing thought. It’s a place I love to venture to in books and movies, but nothing beats my own imagination. If only more people in my generation had an imagination. Teens now a days are starting to date and have sex starting at the very youngest 12 or 13, and are subject to the peer pressure starting in late elementary school! Now, I don’t know about you, but maybe…just maybe there is something wrong with this picture. Kids now a days want to grow up. They don’t want to dwell on little petty things like reading or taking a long walk down the ocean front just to hear the waves roar. Granted, I’m not your typical seventeen year old kid, but, eh – I have my moments where I would rather be partying then doing something more innocent.
I guess I just wish that I personally could have more time to just be a child again. To not have to worry about if I will have enough money to pay for tuition next year, or if I will ever find a job that pays well enough, & I’m really tired of just getting by. But I can tell you one thing, every small time I do take to do something childish, I feel so much more relaxed afterwards. I feel like there is this huge release of pressure whenever I take an hour or two to write my thoughts down in my journal, or to write a short story, or do a painting, or simply sit outside on the swing and listen to the wind blow the trees. I suppose its just one of thoughs times where I thank God that I’m alive, instead of complaining about what I still am yet to have.
One of my absolute favorite movies is Finding Neverland. It shows exactly what I’m talking about. About how life can have its ups and downs, but there’s really no point in living if you don’t take the time to have fun. Sometimes even I like to go to Neverland. No, I’m not mental, I’m serious. I like to just sit down someplace quiet, and just imagine what I could be doing. Or, simply think of a place that nobody else can get to, and dwell on the lovely thoughts that captivate it in my mind. A place where there is no drama, no pain, nor any kind of sad or depressing thought. It’s a place I love to venture to in books and movies, but nothing beats my own imagination. If only more people in my generation had an imagination. Teens now a days are starting to date and have sex starting at the very youngest 12 or 13, and are subject to the peer pressure starting in late elementary school! Now, I don’t know about you, but maybe…just maybe there is something wrong with this picture. Kids now a days want to grow up. They don’t want to dwell on little petty things like reading or taking a long walk down the ocean front just to hear the waves roar. Granted, I’m not your typical seventeen year old kid, but, eh – I have my moments where I would rather be partying then doing something more innocent.
I guess I just wish that I personally could have more time to just be a child again. To not have to worry about if I will have enough money to pay for tuition next year, or if I will ever find a job that pays well enough, & I’m really tired of just getting by. But I can tell you one thing, every small time I do take to do something childish, I feel so much more relaxed afterwards. I feel like there is this huge release of pressure whenever I take an hour or two to write my thoughts down in my journal, or to write a short story, or do a painting, or simply sit outside on the swing and listen to the wind blow the trees. I suppose its just one of thoughs times where I thank God that I’m alive, instead of complaining about what I still am yet to have.
Monday, July 7, 2008
Birthdays - and John
My birthday kicked major ass this year! ^_^
No, not many people showed this year, but we had a blast! It was me, my e-ville friends, Kaycee & Kricia, Demara, my Uncle Brian, Luke, and my parents. It was soooo much fun though. Whats funny is, a couple things went wrong, but they didnt spoil my day, yeah i was a bit upset, but i still had a blast.
Then Holiday World w/ my E-ville friends was amazing - we had soooo much fun. I really needed the time off to just chill for a while. Ive had a couple things stress me out lately, and piss me off but I feel allot better now that ive got some me time. I still miss John though....
I reeeeeeaaaalllllllyyyyyy want him to come home. Its sooo sad though cuz I'm one of the people telling him to move to NC cuz he would be so much better off there, and now i want to be all selfish and want him home asap. I miss him like its out of style. All I could really dwell on last night was him, but yet...I couldnt quite tell him what I wanted to.
All I wanted to say to him on the phone last night was how much I was missing him, and finnnnnallly come out to him about the trust issue. I was THAT happy. I do trust him! I know I do! Yes....Im scared to say it cuz it seems everytime I go that far with a guy - as in, to the point of completely trusting his judgement - I end up hurt, or pulled into situations where im just kinda stuck...so...this is a HUGE step for me, but I think I can take it.
I was listening to Because of You this morning [ yeah... out of my charactor, but hell...i was in a mood okay! lol ] and it just kinda hit me...It IS because of my past that I dont trust people like I should, and I look at things in an entirely differnt prospective - but i cant completly blame my past reationships w/ both guys and family on me not trusting....Im just terrified... If anything in this world scares me more - its commitment. I mean, shit - im now 17 years old - why do I need to be in a fully commited reationship and completely forgeting the notion of ever dating anybody else for the rest of eternity? ...but...with that said...
If I could commit to anything, or anybody in this whole world...it would be John T. Indvick. He has never in his life tired to hurt me in any way shape or form, and is probley one of the only guys who told me he loved me with every single iota of his being - and meant it completely. Not to metion Im completely crazy about pretty much EVERYTHING about him. Whether it his looks, his humor, or the way he treats me as a whole - i love it. He is that amazing. I'm not saying hes perfect - nobody is - but...hes the closest thing I've ever had to it, and I strongly doubt anybody could beat what I have right now.
John has managed to get me to accept myself. Whether its my outward looks [ which i still kinda dislike, but who doesnt dislike somthing about their looks? ] or whether its the way i treat people, or the way i think. Hes showed me that not all people are who they say they really are, nomatter how beliveable it may be at first. and hes showed me that I should follow my own head, instead of constantly relying on everybody else to make decions for me, or show me how I should think. and, ya know whats really funny? He never really tried to change me. he just...showed me. in his own little ways, he showed me that Im not the ugly annoying tramp that I always thought I was. Im smart, funny, beautiful, and in some cases romantic. I never have had this much self esteme around a guy...ever...lol! He can make me feel so...great...
I think God has finnally answerd my prayer. It took him five years...but he did. And Ive thanked him constantly for it. maybe...just maybe...ive caught him. Eh...I might just have a life after all. lol!
No, not many people showed this year, but we had a blast! It was me, my e-ville friends, Kaycee & Kricia, Demara, my Uncle Brian, Luke, and my parents. It was soooo much fun though. Whats funny is, a couple things went wrong, but they didnt spoil my day, yeah i was a bit upset, but i still had a blast.
Then Holiday World w/ my E-ville friends was amazing - we had soooo much fun. I really needed the time off to just chill for a while. Ive had a couple things stress me out lately, and piss me off but I feel allot better now that ive got some me time. I still miss John though....
I reeeeeeaaaalllllllyyyyyy want him to come home. Its sooo sad though cuz I'm one of the people telling him to move to NC cuz he would be so much better off there, and now i want to be all selfish and want him home asap. I miss him like its out of style. All I could really dwell on last night was him, but yet...I couldnt quite tell him what I wanted to.
All I wanted to say to him on the phone last night was how much I was missing him, and finnnnnallly come out to him about the trust issue. I was THAT happy. I do trust him! I know I do! Yes....Im scared to say it cuz it seems everytime I go that far with a guy - as in, to the point of completely trusting his judgement - I end up hurt, or pulled into situations where im just kinda stuck...so...this is a HUGE step for me, but I think I can take it.
I was listening to Because of You this morning [ yeah... out of my charactor, but hell...i was in a mood okay! lol ] and it just kinda hit me...It IS because of my past that I dont trust people like I should, and I look at things in an entirely differnt prospective - but i cant completly blame my past reationships w/ both guys and family on me not trusting....Im just terrified... If anything in this world scares me more - its commitment. I mean, shit - im now 17 years old - why do I need to be in a fully commited reationship and completely forgeting the notion of ever dating anybody else for the rest of eternity? ...but...with that said...
If I could commit to anything, or anybody in this whole world...it would be John T. Indvick. He has never in his life tired to hurt me in any way shape or form, and is probley one of the only guys who told me he loved me with every single iota of his being - and meant it completely. Not to metion Im completely crazy about pretty much EVERYTHING about him. Whether it his looks, his humor, or the way he treats me as a whole - i love it. He is that amazing. I'm not saying hes perfect - nobody is - but...hes the closest thing I've ever had to it, and I strongly doubt anybody could beat what I have right now.
John has managed to get me to accept myself. Whether its my outward looks [ which i still kinda dislike, but who doesnt dislike somthing about their looks? ] or whether its the way i treat people, or the way i think. Hes showed me that not all people are who they say they really are, nomatter how beliveable it may be at first. and hes showed me that I should follow my own head, instead of constantly relying on everybody else to make decions for me, or show me how I should think. and, ya know whats really funny? He never really tried to change me. he just...showed me. in his own little ways, he showed me that Im not the ugly annoying tramp that I always thought I was. Im smart, funny, beautiful, and in some cases romantic. I never have had this much self esteme around a guy...ever...lol! He can make me feel so...great...
I think God has finnally answerd my prayer. It took him five years...but he did. And Ive thanked him constantly for it. maybe...just maybe...ive caught him. Eh...I might just have a life after all. lol!
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Is having a 50/50 day...
As you can tell from the title, my day has been so so...
I woke up this morning, and went to church with the folks, nothing bad, it was okay. Then we went to Wal-Mart and I blew some money on some stuff I had been putting off buying for a while. Stilll...okay. Then we get home. My mother has a cow because my dad isnt helping her with the cooking. Then my Dad decides to open his fat mouth and piss her off more. They argue. I'm, as usiual, stuck in the middle of it, and go into my room - wanting nothing to do with either of them, before one pulls me to their side before I can refuse.
So, I go into my room, and start cleaning it up. This is typically what I do when I am trying to get somthing off of my mind, or ignore somthing/someone. I get finnished cleaning my room, and find nothing else that I want to do. So instead of listening to my mother slam the cabnets in the kitchen in fury, I call my boyfriend. We hadnt really talked in a little bit, because he wasnt fdeeling too hott last night, and the night before that we got into a semi argument. So, I thought maybe he would have somthing uplifting to say, and maybe shine some light on the situation as he typically does. We talk for about 3 min.'s. I continue to make random comments, and when I figue out that he isnt going to reply, we sit in silence as I play with the buttons on my remote, ignoreing all of the bad vibes going through my house. I wanted to bawl, but Im starting to get better at stopping it.
Ever since I had my little mental breakdown my Freshmen year, I have been really insanely touchy about allot of things, and would cry easily. My only rule was dont cry infront of people you dont trust to help you out. So I would hold it in untill I could hide in the school bathroom, or into my room to bawl like a two year old who just fell off their bike.
Soooo...anyways...we sit in silence as I keep myself from crying due to my copnstant dwelling on the idea of me and John ending up like that, when he decides to just blow me off. Granted...he probley didnt blow me off...just got sick of the silence, and probley had somthing better & more important to do seeing as hes at his dads...but...the light I was looking for wasnt their, and Im really not the type to beg for help. So...that kinda pulled me down a little more. So I dwell for about 30 minutes till it calms down in the living room, then I go to my computer and fiddle around for a bit.
My Dad then decides to have me go driving for a couple minutes, so we do. and I almost hit a freaking car turning onto another road...yeah...I wasnt feeling too hott...lol! I did okay comming home though. Which brough me more at ease with myself knowing I could do somthing right...even though they decided not to tell me so.
I then fiddle around some more at home, make me a smothie, and called a couple people to figure out who was going to show up at my party this weekend [ its my 17th birthday on sunday ^_^ ] and I get blown off by a couple friends of mine, but it doesnt effect me much. and now im here...typing out this blog to blow time. O well... I supose I shall write to ya all latta. Im gonna go write somthing...I feel like writting....
I woke up this morning, and went to church with the folks, nothing bad, it was okay. Then we went to Wal-Mart and I blew some money on some stuff I had been putting off buying for a while. Stilll...okay. Then we get home. My mother has a cow because my dad isnt helping her with the cooking. Then my Dad decides to open his fat mouth and piss her off more. They argue. I'm, as usiual, stuck in the middle of it, and go into my room - wanting nothing to do with either of them, before one pulls me to their side before I can refuse.
So, I go into my room, and start cleaning it up. This is typically what I do when I am trying to get somthing off of my mind, or ignore somthing/someone. I get finnished cleaning my room, and find nothing else that I want to do. So instead of listening to my mother slam the cabnets in the kitchen in fury, I call my boyfriend. We hadnt really talked in a little bit, because he wasnt fdeeling too hott last night, and the night before that we got into a semi argument. So, I thought maybe he would have somthing uplifting to say, and maybe shine some light on the situation as he typically does. We talk for about 3 min.'s. I continue to make random comments, and when I figue out that he isnt going to reply, we sit in silence as I play with the buttons on my remote, ignoreing all of the bad vibes going through my house. I wanted to bawl, but Im starting to get better at stopping it.
Ever since I had my little mental breakdown my Freshmen year, I have been really insanely touchy about allot of things, and would cry easily. My only rule was dont cry infront of people you dont trust to help you out. So I would hold it in untill I could hide in the school bathroom, or into my room to bawl like a two year old who just fell off their bike.
Soooo...anyways...we sit in silence as I keep myself from crying due to my copnstant dwelling on the idea of me and John ending up like that, when he decides to just blow me off. Granted...he probley didnt blow me off...just got sick of the silence, and probley had somthing better & more important to do seeing as hes at his dads...but...the light I was looking for wasnt their, and Im really not the type to beg for help. So...that kinda pulled me down a little more. So I dwell for about 30 minutes till it calms down in the living room, then I go to my computer and fiddle around for a bit.
My Dad then decides to have me go driving for a couple minutes, so we do. and I almost hit a freaking car turning onto another road...yeah...I wasnt feeling too hott...lol! I did okay comming home though. Which brough me more at ease with myself knowing I could do somthing right...even though they decided not to tell me so.
I then fiddle around some more at home, make me a smothie, and called a couple people to figure out who was going to show up at my party this weekend [ its my 17th birthday on sunday ^_^ ] and I get blown off by a couple friends of mine, but it doesnt effect me much. and now im here...typing out this blog to blow time. O well... I supose I shall write to ya all latta. Im gonna go write somthing...I feel like writting....
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Fansubbs & You!
Hello Everybody!
This is somthing I wrote for my website - and I thought I would also post it on my myspace as well. It might be intresting to hear the reactions I get to it. Please- feel free to comment, or check out my new forum page on my website :
www.freewebs.com/jveach400
^ so not a promo....lol ^_^
~ Jess
Fansub's & YOU!
Oh the fansubs ^_^ Don't we all just love them? But ~ why do we love them?
Lets face it, they are free, mass produced, some of decent quality, and did I mention free? Until recently, I was with the majority of you who believed that funsubbing was not a horrible act of treachery against the anime industry in both Japan and in America. They were free and mass produced through many sites such as Veoh and YouTube. Eh, it's free advertising right? What's the big deal? Well, with the help of the most wonderful Greg Ayres [ voice actor commonly heard in ADV anime productions ] I have now learned that this is most DEFINATLY not the case.
Fansubs are one of the largest of problems amongst the anime industry today. Companies are not only losing money - but in some cases going completely out of business; such as our recent loss of Geneon.
According to Anime News Network, "Other companies, both Japanese and North American, have much less tolerance for fansubs. Some Japanese companies have asked fansubbers to not translate their properties, while representatives of some American companies have publicly stated that they do not appreciate the efforts of fansubbers."
I personally have attended panel's during the Paducah Kentucky OMG! Con where Greg Ayres made a most amazing argument against fansubbers; stating that fansubbers are practically ruining the industry by making anime free so that people don't typically buy the anime anymore. They simply get on their computers, and watch the whole series online. If you are not already aware, most popular anime, and even some of the more un-commonly known anime can be found, in its full form - online, translated by armature anime translators.
Some may argue that fansubs are not that awful. They simply provide the shows we love to people who either cannot afford to buy the DVD's, or simply want a preview of an anime before investing in it. This is, in my opinion - absurd. Anime is at its cheapest right now in America. If somebody really wants to see an anime that bad, they can check out the anime's legal producers site for previews, and look up discount stores online to buy there anime from. It is more expensive to buy anime in Japan then it is here in the States. Believe it or not, anime isn't near as available in Japan as it is in America.
The bottom line you ask? Fansubs are pulling the anime industry to an increasing halt. More and more companies are falling closer and closer to bankruptcy due to the recent demand for fansubs - as to the DVDs. Some may also argue the point of Sub vs. Dub. But, to be quite frank, all I have to say on that subject is - who are you going to trust more? A professional who has been translating for years, or a fansubber who is using a program 10 million years old, who doesn't have a very broad look at the Japanese language itself?
I propose that more anime consumers support there favorite anime by buying them in there legal form if they plan on having more anime in the future. If this pattern stays constant : we may not have much longer to enjoy the anime we have today. Companies will fall, and anime writers will loose their jobs due to the decreasing demand for DVD's. The same applies for manga. Scanlations are also becoming more and more popular in the sates, and will soon follow the pattern on anime if they aren't already doing so.
But – the choice to stop this pattern is up to the viewers – such as yourself. We must stop illegal fansubs – in all of their various forms. I do hope that my little rant has turned a couple heads towards the right direction. Please feel free to drop me a line – whether against or for my cause – I look forward to hearing your comments.
This is somthing I wrote for my website - and I thought I would also post it on my myspace as well. It might be intresting to hear the reactions I get to it. Please- feel free to comment, or check out my new forum page on my website :
www.freewebs.com/jveach400
^ so not a promo....lol ^_^
~ Jess
Fansub's & YOU!
Oh the fansubs ^_^ Don't we all just love them? But ~ why do we love them?
Lets face it, they are free, mass produced, some of decent quality, and did I mention free? Until recently, I was with the majority of you who believed that funsubbing was not a horrible act of treachery against the anime industry in both Japan and in America. They were free and mass produced through many sites such as Veoh and YouTube. Eh, it's free advertising right? What's the big deal? Well, with the help of the most wonderful Greg Ayres [ voice actor commonly heard in ADV anime productions ] I have now learned that this is most DEFINATLY not the case.
Fansubs are one of the largest of problems amongst the anime industry today. Companies are not only losing money - but in some cases going completely out of business; such as our recent loss of Geneon.
According to Anime News Network, "Other companies, both Japanese and North American, have much less tolerance for fansubs. Some Japanese companies have asked fansubbers to not translate their properties, while representatives of some American companies have publicly stated that they do not appreciate the efforts of fansubbers."
I personally have attended panel's during the Paducah Kentucky OMG! Con where Greg Ayres made a most amazing argument against fansubbers; stating that fansubbers are practically ruining the industry by making anime free so that people don't typically buy the anime anymore. They simply get on their computers, and watch the whole series online. If you are not already aware, most popular anime, and even some of the more un-commonly known anime can be found, in its full form - online, translated by armature anime translators.
Some may argue that fansubs are not that awful. They simply provide the shows we love to people who either cannot afford to buy the DVD's, or simply want a preview of an anime before investing in it. This is, in my opinion - absurd. Anime is at its cheapest right now in America. If somebody really wants to see an anime that bad, they can check out the anime's legal producers site for previews, and look up discount stores online to buy there anime from. It is more expensive to buy anime in Japan then it is here in the States. Believe it or not, anime isn't near as available in Japan as it is in America.
The bottom line you ask? Fansubs are pulling the anime industry to an increasing halt. More and more companies are falling closer and closer to bankruptcy due to the recent demand for fansubs - as to the DVDs. Some may also argue the point of Sub vs. Dub. But, to be quite frank, all I have to say on that subject is - who are you going to trust more? A professional who has been translating for years, or a fansubber who is using a program 10 million years old, who doesn't have a very broad look at the Japanese language itself?
I propose that more anime consumers support there favorite anime by buying them in there legal form if they plan on having more anime in the future. If this pattern stays constant : we may not have much longer to enjoy the anime we have today. Companies will fall, and anime writers will loose their jobs due to the decreasing demand for DVD's. The same applies for manga. Scanlations are also becoming more and more popular in the sates, and will soon follow the pattern on anime if they aren't already doing so.
But – the choice to stop this pattern is up to the viewers – such as yourself. We must stop illegal fansubs – in all of their various forms. I do hope that my little rant has turned a couple heads towards the right direction. Please feel free to drop me a line – whether against or for my cause – I look forward to hearing your comments.
Monday, June 9, 2008
Due to a recent comment...
...I thought I would write to you about this, and also get some things off my chest before I explode. This is a touchy subject for me because there are many different view points it could take. None of which end pretty. I wrote a blog a while back about guys screwing me over, and an ex of mine named Nathan commented on it asking if he fell under the category of guys who had fucked me over at one point in the relationship. Well...I thought about it...and it has been bugging me all day. Did he really screw me over? Or was he doing just what he thought was best at the time? I will tell everybody right now, right off the bat that mine and Nathan relationship was everything but completely perfect. We had many things occur during the 5 or 6 months we were dating. One of which, I counted as him hurting me beyond belief. and now, I’m not so sure if he really meant it like it came out. Heres what happened....
I left him because I didnt feel comfortable being with him anymore because it got to the point that I would look at him, and still think of my then ex John. He was all I could really ever think about. Yeah, when me and Nathan were alone, it was Nathan taking over my heart, but when I went home that night....it would be John taking over my dreams. I was obsessed with this belief of John never coming back, and Nathan was all I had. but the more I thought about it, the worse it got....the more I would dwell on the subject of my first true love. John on the other hand at the time I believe could of given a fuck less about me. I would try to talk to him and he would blow me off. Ever since I left him for Nathan, he started acting different, and doing things that I didnt personally approve of. but I finally talked myself into thinking that if he ever wished to talk to me, he would. and he had his new girlfriend to take care of him. but that didnt change the fact that I loved him. So, I decided that if I was going to get anywhere in life, I needed to get rid of the access drama...and Nathan was apart of that drama. I felt as though, in some way, I was cheating on him...and I couldn’t take the slight betrayal of it all on my part. So...I left him...
Nathan didnt take it too soundly, and got REALLY pissed. He soon after sent me a long 5 or 6 paragraph letter explaining to me how a horrible black hearted traitor I was, and how he didnt understand how he devoted thoughs few months on my ass. That I was basically a worthless bitch. I read that damn letter about 2000 times in the hopes of what I was reading was a hoax. There was no way that he thought that stuff about me. I cant tell you how many tears I wasted on that letter. I finally latter cooked up the courage to reply to him, and we didnt talk for months. I didnt do a god damn thing to him that wasnt in his best interest - he on the other hand decided to treat me like crap in the end, and everything I did for him automatically meant absolutely nothing. Does that qualify as being screwed over to you? Or was it just what I deserved.
There are many many many things that I ended up not liking about Nathan, but Im sure if I were to mention these things they would open scars, and me and this person would end up in one of our fights, one of the things I disliked about our relationship. We fought about EVERYTHING....but... Nathan wasn’t all bad. Most of my friends, my current boyfriend especially, think different....but I think I saw a side of Nathan that nobody else was able to touch. I truly did love this guy, and in some deep dark realm of my soul I still care for him. Because, when ever I hear that something is wrong with him, or if anything happened to him, I get right on it. I act as his protector. Whether I should or not, I still dont know, but I do. He has a side that I dont think many people really get the chance to see. I know him so well, it even scares him. I was always the one to feed him advice, and help him when he needed me. I was and am the one who will tell it to him as bluntly as I know how, because tough love is my typically my thing. I give it to you flat and un sugar coated. If you ask, ill tell. Im not the type to want to change a guy. I believe you date a guy for the guy - not the guy you are planning on turning them into being. but thats just me... Nathan on the other hand, would spot things about me that he just hated, and would bitch to me about them, resulting in many of our wonderful arguments. I was always doing SOMETHING he didn’t like at at least one point within the week.
The fact of the matter is, I ended up being more a guardian angel to Nathan, rather then a girlfriend. All of the words he spoke to me that were against me, I learned to look past. Yes....I loved him....but it just wasn’t working. Every time we tried...it didnt work. I do believe we both got something out of the deal, both good and bad. Which is why im not sure if he truly falls under the category of "screwed me over guys"...because in the end, he was just doing what he thought was true at the time....I might just be making excuses for him, i dano... what do ya all think? because the more I think about it, the less I know....
I left him because I didnt feel comfortable being with him anymore because it got to the point that I would look at him, and still think of my then ex John. He was all I could really ever think about. Yeah, when me and Nathan were alone, it was Nathan taking over my heart, but when I went home that night....it would be John taking over my dreams. I was obsessed with this belief of John never coming back, and Nathan was all I had. but the more I thought about it, the worse it got....the more I would dwell on the subject of my first true love. John on the other hand at the time I believe could of given a fuck less about me. I would try to talk to him and he would blow me off. Ever since I left him for Nathan, he started acting different, and doing things that I didnt personally approve of. but I finally talked myself into thinking that if he ever wished to talk to me, he would. and he had his new girlfriend to take care of him. but that didnt change the fact that I loved him. So, I decided that if I was going to get anywhere in life, I needed to get rid of the access drama...and Nathan was apart of that drama. I felt as though, in some way, I was cheating on him...and I couldn’t take the slight betrayal of it all on my part. So...I left him...
Nathan didnt take it too soundly, and got REALLY pissed. He soon after sent me a long 5 or 6 paragraph letter explaining to me how a horrible black hearted traitor I was, and how he didnt understand how he devoted thoughs few months on my ass. That I was basically a worthless bitch. I read that damn letter about 2000 times in the hopes of what I was reading was a hoax. There was no way that he thought that stuff about me. I cant tell you how many tears I wasted on that letter. I finally latter cooked up the courage to reply to him, and we didnt talk for months. I didnt do a god damn thing to him that wasnt in his best interest - he on the other hand decided to treat me like crap in the end, and everything I did for him automatically meant absolutely nothing. Does that qualify as being screwed over to you? Or was it just what I deserved.
There are many many many things that I ended up not liking about Nathan, but Im sure if I were to mention these things they would open scars, and me and this person would end up in one of our fights, one of the things I disliked about our relationship. We fought about EVERYTHING....but... Nathan wasn’t all bad. Most of my friends, my current boyfriend especially, think different....but I think I saw a side of Nathan that nobody else was able to touch. I truly did love this guy, and in some deep dark realm of my soul I still care for him. Because, when ever I hear that something is wrong with him, or if anything happened to him, I get right on it. I act as his protector. Whether I should or not, I still dont know, but I do. He has a side that I dont think many people really get the chance to see. I know him so well, it even scares him. I was always the one to feed him advice, and help him when he needed me. I was and am the one who will tell it to him as bluntly as I know how, because tough love is my typically my thing. I give it to you flat and un sugar coated. If you ask, ill tell. Im not the type to want to change a guy. I believe you date a guy for the guy - not the guy you are planning on turning them into being. but thats just me... Nathan on the other hand, would spot things about me that he just hated, and would bitch to me about them, resulting in many of our wonderful arguments. I was always doing SOMETHING he didn’t like at at least one point within the week.
The fact of the matter is, I ended up being more a guardian angel to Nathan, rather then a girlfriend. All of the words he spoke to me that were against me, I learned to look past. Yes....I loved him....but it just wasn’t working. Every time we tried...it didnt work. I do believe we both got something out of the deal, both good and bad. Which is why im not sure if he truly falls under the category of "screwed me over guys"...because in the end, he was just doing what he thought was true at the time....I might just be making excuses for him, i dano... what do ya all think? because the more I think about it, the less I know....
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